S-T-R-E-S-S-E-D

Oops! But not depressed.

Ate Queen was right. When other people put me down, I should not help them. I was afraid that my name is destroyed. Then again, Ate Queen was right. They were just a small percentage of those who really know me.

I felt weak to the knees. It was not my intention to be such a burden to the organizers, but it was circumstances that stop me from participating.

A surreal blur is the perfect description of this state. I know I am already being tagged as irresponsible and everything to that effect. But my mother was right. I should not feel guilty because I don't intend to be such.

I own all errors, but I cannot help it if I am hurt. Yea, I will let the text message, supposedly sent wrongly, pass. But the content was just too much. She did not lie, although I felt it was a bit exaggerated. I will let it pass. What bothers me most is the simple line that with her is our chairperson, who is really pissed off at me. I never take away her right to be annoyed. I just cannot believe that it happened behind my knowledge. If I know her right, she would inform me. Everything she says, be it negative or not, I accept with all pleasure because I know I learned something new from my mentor. I do not mind being coaxed by her for I know that it would be for my own good. But no. She was annoyed without me learning anything from it. And that hurts me so.